Friday, March 25, 2005
.:chucked:.
hated.not loved.
its holy thursday.
i wonder if we guys remembered.
a year had passed
since the washing of feet
and boy..
a lot had change.
zelly is greatly missed.
and now.theres wood-ians.
and you know whatever follows.
anyways.the session had a different feel
from the last..
thoughts.
hurt.
tears.
expectation and so of which you nto get.
being upset aint new.
mood-swings when you snap.
thats not the way i want.
but why.
i know/.
it'll get worst.
wont it.
and well.washing of feet.
prayers and all.
adoration session..
is everyday gonna be liek this.
i hope not.
i wanna be happy/.
we all did say.
i was able to laugh anything off.
i said.
i assured.
i'd be.
and now.
look what now.
i'm not the person.
i hope i could be.
i wanted the tears.
but they dont fall.
cos there'll be a greater wave.
crashing down.
and still.
would you.
i find it pointless for someone.
to be affected by another.
or should i say.
not pointless.
its not worth it at all
shoot.
i dotn even knwo what i want.
what i feel.
all i know.
it rips inside.
and as we all go on.
theres the hurt killing.
and what could ever make it worst.
you dont know.
you dont care.
your life.lived.
my life.ruined.
oh lord.
what the hell am i typing!
ok anyways..
dear lord.thank you for all these wonderful people around me.knowing that you can be at your lowest.and you knwo theres always them to be there for you.eh what the hell.seriously.what am i doing.
its counfusing.why am i sounding so low.so sad.dumbass.just remember.
you've hurt.
one day.i'll go up to you and whisper that.
you're hurting me.
screamed at|12:47 am
