Wednesday, March 30, 2005
.:you've always wanted me this way:.
i feel insulted.
well..some dumbass just made me so.
i'm not gonna brood over the matter
cos it's just a small one
and why should i care.
blood ties.
people do not see what i do.
family.sibling..
love.trust.respect.
they seem rather dashed!
i dont mind the loss of respect.
i dont need it.
all i can say
i live my own life.and you.yours.
but when i depart.
dont fucking want me back!
its just disaapointing.
not every family is perfect.
im glad.im in trouble with the worst idiot ever.
so that might seem a lil more comforting.
rather than a tiff with my 'rents.
but anyways.
at least my mum disagreed.
eh.but thats only part of it.
dissapointment.
im living with that!
okayy besides this darn issue..
thats not the only childish thing which happened.
it started first period.
i was walking into chinese class.
i meant...we were all walking..
then callixta pushed me aside.
then i started acting childish saying.
//i dont friend you.i tell my mummy//
and all those rubbish you say in primary school.
its retarded.
but hey..callix played along with me.
not only her.so did sam.
it was damn funny.
it lasted till after recess.
see.friends do make your day.sometimes..
and well.really looking back.
people really do change.
change postivively.
we grow up.
im realising all those childish acts
that happened in primary school.
it all seems really lame now.
coming to think of it.
absolutely childish!
and now..after so much of experiences.
dont you get numb?
problems still occur.
but we find it easier to handle.
but then again.
when its bad.
it goes all bad...
but now not now to think of it.
it'll come.
mrs lee expresses how dissapointed she is in me.
oh fuck.dissapointment...
again..
well.yeah.she is..
it made me realise so much importance.
heres something new. which prolly most have heard
okayy..
the first three months junior college thing is back.
so yeah/..prelims would actutally count..
damn it..
so everybody must work hard.
and i'd better be one of them.
and stop playing!
i'm missing a lot.
while its still quiet.let us go off in silence.scream for yellowcardwant yellowcardlove yellowcard.they're fucking good!NOW IM OLDER I WANT TO BE THE SAME AS YOU!
we'll be miles apart
i'll keep you deep inside
you're always in my heart
a new life to start
i may be leaving but you're always in my heart
//late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year down here
screamed at|9:04 pm
