Monday, March 28, 2005
.:bringing home thoughts of yesterday:.
it's over.
monday is gone..
and tomorrows parents meet
is cancelled!
score.
it might be a longer period
before my 'rents
really
REALLYget mad at me..
so till then.
im
fat i know that.
and i wanna be slim..
so im taking really really stupid measures.
skipping meals.
not eating what i used to.
trying to maintain the diet as well..
and whats worst..
the chicken rice i ate was oily.
oh god..
im so gonna avoid all the fastfood.
really..
skipping recess was
never how it should be.
im forcing myself to change the diet cycle..
the portions im take are gonna be zilch.
haha.hopefully in all.
i can go back to how i looked at the wedding.
hmmm.i guess..
i shall go back to the nice 55.
even thats heavy okay..
and i'll maintain it..
okay.suddenly todays topic gone to
dieting.eatign habits and weight.
the heavy me..
i swear if i dont do something.
ill grow
fa-tu-gly..and i wont be able to fit into my clothes no more..
im being paranoid.
people think ive got someone
cos im wearing skirts to church.
im fat fat fat!
heres whats contradicts.
you either be really slim..
or really fat..
why did i not choose being really fat.
its easier to achieve.
i'll crush my
boyfriend!
and he'll die!
and i'll be all alone again.
:[[
i think im getting retarded here...
i'd better get back to the books..
mugging time..
im not into the issue of having someone..
time alone is really pleasant..
at least.
it does not affect me.
i learnt once.
if you're feelign troubled
jsut go along and have fun
and do whatever you please.
do all you can to make yourself happy.
but..
there will be not buts.
im not supposed to care.
so.
:]]
thats what i'll be no matter what.
the time when i get murdered
by the emotions will come/
so as of now.
pretend or even ACT.
i sure can do that..
and im still fat fat fat!
maybe i should be dodo the fatfat.
haha.nice.
screamed at|7:11 pm
