Monday, March 21, 2005
.:musical chairs:.
it's painful.
and thats all i feel..
hurt..
first of all..my hula girl ain't so bad.
i mean..
the retreat got me closer to him.
he's not that bad.
i mean maybe.on the surface as it is.
it's really good..
well..love wise..maybe he's an idiot.
but i do trust my friendship with him.
really..
here's for you.hula girl.
:]
and another..there's another him..maybe i'd better not say.
he's good too..
thank you.for what we three shared..
okayy..maureens grandma passed on.
so we all went to the wake for prayers..
there was someone in the bus staring at me.
oh freak.
im not joking..
he really was.
george was liek what?
and.sheesh..well..
bug off.
so left along with ian.cheston and george.
the sengkang people.
everytime.i try.
erm.not really try.
but jsut live as we all do..
the life we want..
it really doesnt really mean so much.
you try.
you dont try so hard.
its hard.
really.
i dont want the loss.
oh.
why can't you be there.
matt.?
silently.
rejection makes me stronger.
im living with it.
i'm the person who i was.
and always will be..
sorry for how i am.
thats jsut the way i'll be
love me for me.
i wont change for you to love.
and its not for you my girl.
screamed at|9:15 pm
