Monday, February 28, 2005
.:broken cowtitude:.
there's too much to handle.i really should sit out..i'm getting myself hurt again..well.i am so asking for it.jokes carried too far.im sorry.but forgiveness comes in another..well..im screwed.not only in this but friendship.its screwed.
i dont even know what to feel..its me.really..
i chose the life i ever did want.but i lost the life i began with..im losing it..and thigns aren't working out..help me to scream..i need to save myself from all this torment.i need to scream..scream to you.why wont you listen.you're the one whom i want to scream at..be there..
and now.what..get all emotional..he said.he would be there.no matter what..good times only last as time stays..move on and thats not real at all..i hate it for the change/.i hate it for still being in the school..im not working at the friendship.im killing it.and its killing me back..
oh my god.i feel awful.and what can ever make it worst.there is really really something which i wished.but aint here..
where is the laughter you used to bring?
im not all ready to lose it..im trying..but im gettign really really tired..help!dumbass!
screamed at|8:45 pm
