Wednesday, February 16, 2005
.:my answers unknown:.
good morning.well..this is the part where i really need matt..so here goes.
dear matt,
i feel awful.in fact terrible.the choices i made have started to fall back onto me..and what the consequences are are really starting to be a nightmare.and im feeling hurt for nothign again/i cant control emotions.i want to scream.theres no one to hear me.
im selfish.i know.its whats inside which is evil and now it punishment.you might very well not survive.but oh well..i need not vent anger.i need not cry buckets cos all in all.ill grow to be a stronger girl one day and lving each day to knwo.you werent there..for me.by me.to me.as a friend at all.cos what..
that night ruined me.so much.i fear to trust to the fact.i might get hurt again.and you'll never make me feel ok.and whats best would be frienship so much brought up..might very well.be bullshit..hypocrisy which reigns.selfishness.pride.superiorty..take it/my life cant get any better.
dumbass.
and maybe to top it off..i got the icing..break me..break me so much.i dissapear.no one knows..and they'll never understand.
i so hate this.i wanna be free..maybe running away is good..but theres too much to loose.am i thinking. : [
i need serenity.strength..im breakign up.
screamed at|4:25 am
