Sunday, February 20, 2005
.:what happens when it stops!:.
it is only and always through fear that you find yourself weak..so everybody...im gonna teach you how to be strong..jsut liek how i am gonna keep myself strong..
its bullshit when you say you dont really live for the peopel around you..i live and i live by the people around me..they influence me..and i influence them,.,
anyways...i would liek to speak what i have on my mind...and maybe..thsi afternoon..is very important!,..and hello you.listen!
if emotions brought you to have a liking for someone.dont deny what you feel.cos you cant help why...he was not a substitute.i wont deny i liked him and also...i really did leik him..so..that was real...and yes..if he could nto reciprocate.so be it..i still dig him...and you know time takes you far away..i dunno our level of trust..but i assure you..neither am i certain of yours.but that does nto mean anything...i respect everyone and though..sometimes.things get so sour.i just turn bad! and if getting hurt was one issue..i did not take him for a sub for his best friend..honestly...cos i never play with feelings..and now...i've found myself un-caught.cos everybody always thought it was typical of dodo liking soemone..but dodo does not! oh lord.this is so important.
and to you...i dont know what you are feelign now about the past.him and present..but if i can't find answers.i assume and this is not anythign evil..but theres nothing to care...i will turn silent and not care about anythign to be fucked up about? im dumb.im dense.i dont get it..but really..do i need to know...love affairs left me a logn time ago....till that very moment where i lost trust all so much.!
its about time to sit out..o levels are here..and so..sit pout and enjoy those people with tormented lives.who dunno what they want..so just take it..im dumber than you'll ever know!
screamed at|8:15 pm