Sunday, January 30, 2005
.:im not okay:.
i'm so not okay..well..the farking nail ripping thing aint getting any better...fark it...its so damn painful...i thought walking was the cause..not only that..when im stationery..it hurts too...fark..i hate it..why am i so accident prone...my knee..my elbow.my ankle and now my farking toe!!shit...just screwed...maybe it just means..stay home forever dodo..its retribution!!..hmmm...i do believe in that..like hello..i've been sinful lately...great...screw up forever dodo!!and as you can see..im a homer...how nice...sundays were never leik that...this might even turn to a regular thing..i lost all the freedom i ever did have...now..i better say no to everything..that includes church life..church people..those issues which ever kept me going...oh gosh..this sounds so desperate...whatever i type aint really abided by anws...so jsut shut the fark up...!
sunday..once again when and where we meet after an entire 5 day course of torment called school!!!its not really that bad really..but..i dotn know why.im feeling really stressed and theres so much importance to do this and that...that i cant even breathe...so..dada and i served...with that toe...should i pity it or myself..im burdening myself...!!!freak out.we met after...more talks with dada..a minimal one..and woh!!i found out something really cool...ian..gabriel's cousin..gabriel teo's cousin..ian...i used to play with him when i was young..liek farking screamm..ian...alil wrong yar...who in the world would have thought...but anws/...cool shit!!! we were the cfc kids!!right..is that it..cool!!haha....nice...anws..we all walked to compass...then sat a while in macs..and i left...no1..the toe was killing the fark out of me...and no2...mummy was angry and mad mad mad at me..wanting me to go home..so yeah..i've dedicated the rest of my sunday in front of the com..in my room..looking at the 5 storey shelf..the ever thing besides lia which makes me feel im so lucky..and that life is good no matter what...
its wrong to confess..i learnt that!
read between the lines..why do we see what others not..we're special..
screamed at|1:06 pm
