Thursday, June 24, 2004
.:all over again:.
its sad to not expect something to happen and yet it did.well.coincidence or pre-planned or not..it did happen..and sometimes.the feeling is just dreadful..petrifying..speak of the devil..awful..so much to decribe how one coudl ever feel with feeling so betrayed.stabbed at the back.a dart through the heart..it hurts..well.i should have known..i should..it was all with purpose..purpose to hurt..and why get hurt..cos of stoopidity..jsut stoopidity..dont tell me to care.i have always been and its jsut sick..cos its just leik a barnacle.living on its host..and the host which jsut suffers..well.i dunno what to think abt that..awfully dreadful..a pain in the heart that keeps hurting on and on..till the departure..
well.had alot of that thought..one of the many times.my thoughts just run wild and jsut think abt issues..and this has always been there..just running and running..denial,once again..i feel stoopid.yet i wont regret..i wont..im over that..jsut laugh it off.for...a little while..just a lil while.and there'll be silence and laughs..goodness me..it just hurts..
just did not want to do anything..jsut did nto care..had too much..its about time..i think things through.and jsut tired of making decisions that gives you consequences that hurt more..so..my radio.my mTv.thats all i need..
tommorrows the confirmation..and hopefully it will be a place away from so much hurt and more of my faith..and fun.and laughs..ways from thoughts..
[when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears.when you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fearsand i’ve held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me]
i wont end with such happy thoughts,,its worst..
in your eyes.the strong side..in your mind..the foolish one..in your heart..a toy.a tyre.the sin.
screamed at|8:02 pm
