Saturday, May 29, 2004
well just abt to go eat dinner and smth happened.well.i did not expect that reaction but i knew it was smth not good.i dunno what to feel.i choose to not give a damn.but you knwo me.i never stop thikning although i say i do.says its a big impact on me.NOT.growing up means maturing and i sure have grown.physically and also in mentality.people have problems.in fact everyone does.if not life would just be smth without a meaning.when you have problems you come to me.i help you.i save you.what abt me.who do i go to when i have problems.do i confide in myslef.we need opinions.opinions to help make decisions.with decisions,opportunities are created.i wont believe i am someone who knows whats best cos i have yet to reach that state.but i do know.i need you.need you.geesh.who the hell is the you.YOU?
dont tell me this and that.i never get angry.never.dissapointed is the word and also a letdown.i feel low.as if i fell off a cliff.drowned in the deepest ocean.its sick.well.so much for lifting my spirit after the all so boring day.and spirits in me never stay low.they increase.and ill see positivity out of negativity.speak abt me avoiding it.ive been through so much.i fell too low both in love and friendships cos i chose to let myself down.now.its different.the experience is there.and we always ensure the distance.i assume everything.things arent the way they were before.we move on.what do we care.tired of this deceit.its abt time.i stand strong.
the hurt.the pain.take it away.
what conclusion.let it hang.nth has happened.yes.fate decides.not meant to be then so be it..wHy bring oneslef down when theres another who lives cos of my happiness.its amazing.
hypocrisy.who am i kidding.hidden under the covers.the tears they fall like the victorias.and the cold feeling of betrayal.
i know everything.why do i hide what cant be denied.its there.failure to see it brings about the hurt.
screamed at|7:13 pm
