Sunday, May 09, 2004
i dont know what to feel.and its like serious.what am i supposed to feel.jealous.i aint gonna be no jealous bitch.i dont deprive my friends of a relationship.why do i have to care abt it all.you blew it..i dont need to go gaga over you..its not supposed to happen.why do i have to give a farking damn abt you and all your affairs.why do i have to feel that you mean so much to me..cant i just let go..was it too long.it was.like hello.geesh.why do i have to give such reactions.i dont think i need it at all.this painful course will decide to take it leave only when you let it go.holding on.was hard.letting go is worst.it all seems to be an addiction.i dont need anything from you.youre all abt you and your life with whoever you choose.cant i like just stop all this nonsense and what.move on.did i have to tear for you again.i dont wish to think whats your conclusion and mine too.all i know.it will not end with you..it might be noble to give my blessings.but all thats a premonition that i know.will definitely come true.i know it.given my understanding.things will not lie just like that.am i ever gonna be prepared for that.the thought has made me teared.what abt the reality.will it kill.what do i need.i need to forget you and lose it all.actions speak louder than words.and ive gotta prove that.im always decieving myself..am i to feign happiness forever.i wont survive.can i think of it that we broke up.an ending of a beginning that never began at all.
.:i believe.i believe in love and like the stars above.they shine.let it shine over me.set me free.i believe in you.and that our love is true.i believe.i believe:.
screamed at|3:15 pm
