Sunday, May 23, 2004
....i learnt a lesson in my life.but i learnt it the hard way...i used to keep all my feelings inside.from your eyes.i have nth to hide.//to show me love doesnt have to hurt....
ok..shut down the com.packed my bag and still did not feel tired.so here i am to blog and hopefully ill kill the boredom and finally go to bed.argh!!my legs are aching like fark,like whats going on.did i jump or stand around too much..oh goodness me..pain..its real comforting to have been listened to.i feel much better when i spill my thoughts to jsut anyone whom could jsut make me feel better.it gives me so much meanign in life..dying is not worth when you get attention from your loved ones.and im enjoying every minute of it,as at a split second.you could jsut wish you had that moment.and for me.im gonna grab every opportunity in life..cos they dotn come as they may.telling you love someone does not bring your pride down.cos you might jsut regret not doing so..im honoured to have that courage.and im strong to hold down the pain.i stand with all the pride i have.and i never run out of it.though i keep losing it...whats with that.cant life get any better.my life is fulfilled.if you ever feel down.get me in.ill save your life and youll be a barnacle on me..
i hate you but i love you.i jsut cant remember to forget you.wHY do i always get stuck on so many issues.it hurts yet it seems as if i need it.a pain that needs to be there to let me know im alive.the hurt that draws me closer to love.it irks when i have premonitions.are they a warning or smth thats going to come through.im scared but dotn deny what you feel.it might come running affter you.and that would be worst..im not gonna take this down just liek that.ill fix the mess.and with that.i need you to help me decide what i want..the premonitions freeks me out too much and im not the only one who feels it.others formt he outside feel it.what am i to do,,i need you to pick me up.im falling down quickly.help before its too late..
screamed at|10:08 pm
