Wednesday, May 26, 2004
ask me if schools good.i dunno what to feel abt that..ive let myself down.what a bitch.i hate what i do.why do i have to flung all the shit that i do.well.God plans all this to happen.it might seem bad.but id say all he has ever done is all for the better fo me.to from a stronger me.a good thing from the bad.you know what i mean.was pondering abt what d.c was speaking to us about and it so totally got to me..being catholic or should i say a believer of GOd has been the greatest priveledge that has ever happened to me.i could not ask for more.my life is fulfilled and its all about my choice to make it better.yes.choices.
so anws.tomorrows the ptm.im going to get damn big shit..im so freeked out.i thought i did well.but ive proved myself wrong.so wrong.im gonna deprive myself of priveledges.and i jsut hope that i get to do one thing.jsut one thing in the first week of june.just that one thing..i beg.so going for ptm means i aitn gonna have to go school till 1.00 when my DAD sees him..*help/i hope e does nto flare..yikes.later he [die] how.argh.it will be my fault.
on the otherhand.im so into my art coursework now..id say im putting alot of effort in doing it.or should i say EFFORT in bold.yikes.its alot of work.i think im rather stupid to do smth so big.so much for saying it to be zileis height.its way taller than her.opps.well.with determination.ill strive.to succeed.gone this far.hopefully.if i manage to finish.ill go help my other mates.been stuck at it since monday.been in the art room.and i got my sculpture to stand.with the help of corde.i love you.corde.she was there from the beginning till now.so whilst holding it up.i went to tape it.im wasting so much resources.so much.goodness me..im just hoping id be able to crash into staying over in school with the express class.discussing it.hope id be able to.haha
so.outside school.churchs good.all relations are good.well.not so good in certain matters.man people as a whole.so aint alone.so.what do you want me to say.hate.detest.let it be a joke in my life.no cold shoulders..
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