Tuesday, May 18, 2004
aitn gonna go no school tomorrow.its my cousin.jeremy's big day.congratulations..woohoo!so yes..they we dat ihm and dinner at mariott hotel..yes..wedding bells..
am i being justified.justice has not been brought unto me..i found out so much i did not know and the emphasis of it is jsut unbearable..you speak abt me getting over it.you walk away with it,jsut by admitting what you did,but for me.i was there to swallow it down.in one whole chunk.and this is nto the first time,i fell.i got over you once.and now its back again.to haunt me.how long do i need.did it ever occur to you how much i felt.you made me fall,was there any part of you that ever did care or liked me at all.this is what i call the betrayal..all that i ever could put,the trust..you stole my pride.and its not a matter of how but why.you took it all on me.just because of all the other girls.and me.the one who had the honest feelings from the bottom of my heart.i get broken.maybe you jsut dont understand me.you never did.and even if you never did.i was nothing.jsut leik all the rest of us.we were nth.cos you led us on and played around.and how do you turn back.you could.cos youre the devil..dont tell me sorry.cos its a cheap word.and so what if i kill you or take revenge.the hurt is there.you know i will break.i am so deep.i hate you for all this.you put me through.i cant get away..and what..more time..im sick of taking time..cos having gone that before.its painful and hurting.i dont even knwo the good side to this.so what if you get rejected.i really do wonder.if you are ever the marc i knew or was i blinded by you.that you we just a fraud.a lie.someone who was nto worth me at all.indeed you are not..cos you never did care.your pride was all so for you..what abt mine.with so much betrayal and hate.i dotn see us a friends let alone good friends.you are from this day forth.a bludy zilch in my life.you shant matter..and i will stand by that.all shall be beyond contestation...i speak the final.i dominate.
screamed at|8:16 pm
